I don't know what happened

I'm confused.







It felt like everything shut off...




Increasingly convinced I'm no good.

I don't know what to think.

How can I go home after this?

Please be ok.



I need my dreams and my reality to find some middle ground. It confuses me.

Just Realized

I was so intent on getting my job applications to a semi-finished state that I forgot to shower (went to the gym tonight before getting roped into all this).



Good thing I packed yesterday, because I am going to have quite a day tomorrow. Hoping this snow is all a big exaggeration :-/





I'm looking forward to break, but I'm not looking forward to feeling guilty about not having all my work done.

Wondering

How am I going to stay on top of Job applications and do all my classwork?






This is going to be a long couple of months 'til I find out what I'm going to do next year and where I'll be going.






P.S. In my head, everything's perfect. Then I realize just how reality really is.

I better

get a job soon because I have no time/patience to fill out application after application...



*sigh*

Nothing fits anymore

...I didn't realize how bad I'd gotten...I've got to stop this. I can barely look at myself.

I'm Really

Searching for a way out of this.



It crushes me.



It keeps me so alone.



Life is better than it's been in a long time...but it's not near enough.





All of it - my emotions, my hopes, my dreams - takes so much out of me, and right now I have no way to put it all back in. I'm doing the best I can...please don't make me wait much longer.

It only takes a second

For no matter how stressful my day is, lying in bed and knowing that we're on our way to being OK - that we'll always be there for each other - takes away all the worry and fear.





I wish that was enough for you.