Bah Humbug.

Alright...I'm sick. It sucks. I went to school today, but I'm incredibly congested...my eyes are all red, and my head's superly congested, and I can't breathe. I'm REALLY hoping I sleep it off. Especially because it's a busy one this week (and my last full one!).


Aside from my cold, things are OK. Frustrated that a high school choir is better than a more mature choir (the one I'm technically in). Frustrated that I can't hear problems in music that others seem to pick out easily.


I must say, I love this place empty. It's GREAT. I don't feel any obligations, I don't feel lonely (funny how it's easy to feel lonely when there are many people around, but perfectly content when you're on your own) - it's peaceful. Nobody bothers me.


...see what I mean about isolating myself. Can this be good for me??


Speaking of isolating...not sure what's going on in other aspects of my life. Can't deal with this problem anymore - that's for sure. No, actually. It's not that I CAN'T deal with it...it's more, I REFUSE to let it control my life ANYMORE. It has now been moved to the past, and it's not coming back - it's been overdone to the extreme, and there's no more good about it. *wipes hands of situation and moves on*


Well, I think that most of the time I've spent writing this has actually been devoted to filling up whatever space is left in my trash can with tissues. I'm calling it a night.


7 days, 1 Concert.

Every moment I spend with you is beautiful.

It's all so bizarre...

What a weird feeling. What a strange acceptance. What a difficult situation.


I want to be able to give in to my desires.








9 Days, ONE concert :-)

(I'm going to miss this)

Here we go again...

Round two tomorrow night.


Long day today, long day ahead.


That's OK though.


Here I am, here I've been.


It's strange...while growing up, I never imagined that I'd feel like the only one. You don't realize that everyone's going 'til they're gone.



10 Days, 2 Concerts.

Snow is so peaceful

Another busy day, and many more to follow.

Getting a little antsy. Hope it's not all in vain.

Who the hell knows anymore, anyway, lol.
11 Days, 2 to go.




I'm just looking for someone who can share these big dreams :-)

I know...

...that it's only a matter of time.

I know that pushing it to the back of my mind is probably only going to make it worse in the long run.






I just want to enjoy what I have for the short time I'll have it.

Feelin' Good

So tonight went VERY well, if I do say so myself. More well than I anticipated.

It felt good to be up there. I felt more in the moment then than I have in a long time...you know what? That might have been that moment I was talking about a few days ago - that moment of affirmation.

In any case, we're down: 12 Days to go, 2 Concerts to go.

I'm beat. Last observation tomorrow - I feel ready, but I could definitely use a good night's sleep.





Bing Crosby has a lovely voice, even when he's not singing Christmas music :-)
I think there's something to that Foxtrot.