Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My Horoscope

says that today my most important plans will be a success - I'm feeling that this could be right!!!


Well...provided I finish this homework assignment :-p

Monday, February 1, 2010

Goal

Keep my beautifully clean room clean!!!!!!!!!!
I feel disgusted by the weight I gained. I just want it OFF me

I'm afraid

of hurting you, of hurting myself.

I know how I feel, but none of that matters.




I want to try. I want to see what happens.

I despise

how pathetic I can be. This morning I was perfectly content with the way things were. I had accepted what this weekend was. I knew exactly what I was doing, and expected nothing else.

Now I've tarnished something that was nice and happy.





I want you to be happy more than anything. It tears me up to see you sad.

It's Wrong

of me to ask for something when you're sick.






forgive me

February

I don't know what the answer is. I don't know which path to take.











This is where I should tell myself that nobody knows what they're doing, especially at this age. That things are going to be OK - that what's supposed to happen will happen. That I know I'm a strong, competent individual and I know I'll persevere through whatever happens. That I have plenty of time and opportunities to get it right. That I can love myself, and that's all the love I'll really ever need. That every day I'll keep waking up and going to bed and living in between. That I should love the things I have, the simple things, the happy things, the sad things. That all of those things make up our existence, and I couldn't really be ME without them.

I can get through today.