Today

I miss being a musician.


SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.

Yessssssss

So freaking happy right now that I hated college because now the fact that I'm not at/in college makes me feel JOYOUS instead of miserable and wishful for the past.

YEAHHHHH.

So I've been working my own job for almost a full year (ok, there are definitely low points, but still).  I'm pretty much decided on going to Eastman (that's right - f'in EASTMAN) this summer for a class or two, plus I'm gonna see DMB.

What's that?  I'm also going to my fav opera at the MET and a broadway show next month?  And rock climbing (for REALZ rock climbing)???  Just in one month???  Oh, and I'll be in Nova Scotia, Bermuda, and the NJ shore this summer?  What??  

Best reality ever.

Almost forgot - I ran a mile today.  

Yeahhhhhhhhhhh

(temporarily forgetting that I have a superbusy couple of days ahead of me)

I don't agree with your life choices and I can no longer relate to you.  I talk about myself more than I listen about you because it keeps me from thinking about how I disagree/don't relate.

Also, I was trying to hide that I disagree/don't relate and it's easier to hide things when I don't talk about them.

Dunno what to do about that but it's the truth.

Every once in a while I turn off the TV and feel SO much better.

So why is it still on most of the time I'm home???

...Su Casa

Thanks for coming!

Doing SO MUCH better with my new year's resolution for Balance.

And I love LOVE LOVE LOVE my gym!  I lost 1 lb in one week, but MOSTLY...I FEEL SO MUCH MORE ENERGETIC AND UNANGRY/FRUSTRATED!  Thank you, gym!

And I'm actually paying attention to the nutritious side of food - woahhhhh!

The problem is I'm still in this bizarro phase of my life where I can't IMAGINE putting myself through a relationship...it just seems like a terrible, terrible thought, honestly.  Though, I'm still lonely and worried I'll forever be alone. :-(

Whatevvvvvvvvvvvs.  I'll worry about it sometime when I have the luxury of time to worry.  Night night 

Recovering

Recovering from the car accident.  Mentally recovering, that is, because I wasn't the one who was hurt.

What a horrible experience.  And no one seems to care that I was IN A CAR ACCIDENT AND SOMEONE WENT TO THE HOSPITAL AFTERWARDS AND I CALLED 911 SO THAT THE AMBULANCE WOULD TAKE THEM AWAY.

On the bright side, it was not my fault.  I don't feel guilty.  Is it possible that I feel guilty for not feeling guilty?  Someone was seriously hurt and I don't feel guilty, and I possibly feel guilty about that.

This financially f'd me up.

I want MY car back.  And I want to feel financially secure like I was recently starting to feel.

Watching my 5th episode of House today then going to bed.  Donated to March of Dimes and ordered National Geographic because it's COOL and I like to learn about COOL things.  I also like the address labels the March of Dimes people send and I hope they keep sending them.

Today was a rough day.

Home

Actually glad to be home when I get to spend some quality time with old friends :-)